Alright, so last night at work. What a deal.

So last night was my first time working with the new girl. I glanced at her, and i was like 'woah'. She was very very cute. short brown hair, killer smile, pretty eyes, yada yada. you know. so I was like, staring at her and walking at the same time, and i run right into a movie shelf. smooth.

this is going to be an adventure. ;) i'll keep ya updated

and i hate myself for it. I miss you so damn much. Too damn much.

I hate that you probably won't talk to me again. I hate that you are probably on the verge of forgetting about me. I hate that you're probably with someone else. I hate that I miss you this much. I hate that we used to be so good together. I hate when I hear that song on the radio. I hate when I almost catch a drift of that perfume you wear. I hate when I see something that reminds me of you. I hate that you surround me. I hate that you're everywhere, even when you're hundreds of miles away. I hate that you don't love me anymore. But most of all.

I hate that I miss you this much.

"Hey Lindsey, can we go swimming?"
"Hey Lindsey, make me some food?!?"
"Hey Lindsey, let's watch Goosebumps forever and ever!"
"Lindsey, I had an accident..."

I l-o-v-e five year olds :)

I love the kid, I do.

----My MSN isn't working----FTW----

So my relationship with my dad is better than ever. Consequently, my relationship with my mother has hit a downward slope. She can't just live life and be happy. She can't go a second without criticizing. It's driving me insane. I think she's actually jealous that me and my dad are getting along so great now. If things aren't exactly her way, she throws a fit. If they are exactly her way, she finds something that's not right. I can't point out anything specific, because it's just how she ALWAYS is. She didn't use to be this way.

We were talking today about my major, and what I wanted to do with my life. I told her I was thinking about pre-dentistry. She was all for this, but she freaked out when I told her I wasn't going to stay in town either way. Who would, seriously? There's probably around...30,000 people that live here and I feel a little trapped. It's her own fault she's pushed her family away. She wants us all to stay close and put up with her, but yet she treats us all the way she does and is totally shocked when we want out.

Except it kind of scares me. Like really. I don't know if it just wasn't working right last night, but the video feed was effing up. Oh well.

4th of July was nice. Groups of pyro rednecks drinking beer and blowing things up. It's not exactly something you see all the time. They only caught one trash can on fire, though. That's an achievement within itself.

3 weeks and I'm going to California. My friend and I requested tickets to the Tonight Show and guess what? We got em, yep. So that should be fun.

Confession time. I miss Kacy. It's like, she left and everything was fine at first, but then she became a totally different person. I don't know if it's because she's around her family and they're influencing her in some way, or what the deal is, but it sucks. We're done, that's for sure, but it just sucks that I can't get over her. I guess I need something to distract myself from her.

music: five times august. check it.

I just had an urge. Seriously. To get my toenails painted.

I am not that girl, really. I don't like getting my nails done. But today, I did. Don't they say whenever you go through something semi-traumatic you want to change something about yourself? Whoever "they" are, they're right. So here is what happened.

I'm sitting there with my baby feet in the water. Seriously, my feet are like, size 5. It's not something I like to discuss, frankly. I am quite self conscious about my elf feet. So this girl comes and sits beside me, and she's like "OMG your feet are SO tiny! Like a baby's! I hate you!"

What the hell do you say to that? "Um, thanks." Really? "Um, thanks for making me feel seriously awkward and uncomfortable at my very own personal wallowing session." Really? Thanks a lot.

<3 Loves you.

ps, music i have recently discovered: straylight run. check them out.

Just got Live Journal. Like seriously 30 minutes ago. We'll see how this goes.

I'm currently watching E!'s wildest cop show moments. That is what my life has boiled down to. eehgghgh. I'm meeting an old friend for dinner tonight. And by old friend, I mean a friend I drunkenly made out with like 3 weeks ago. I remember it pretty well, but i'm not so sure she does. Does that make it awkward? do I mention it? I just don't know, this is a very delicate situation i'm afraid.

haha-Live Journal has the same moods as Myspace? or does myspace have the same moods as livejournal?